No...not in a literal sense....it's dark at stinken' 4:30PM around here. Man...is that ever "the walls are closing in on me, the sun is never going to shine again" crazy. I don't like it....but despite it, I'm surviving.
At times I wish I was numb to the anxiety I've been feeling...like before (I messed with my medication), but it's good. Okay...not good, but good for me to learn to cope with again. It's not like it's something new. I HAVE been dealing with it for a very long time. I can handle it (or am trying to). Even if handling it means stuffing my face with 2
I want to know when my life got so busy? For the longest time I filled my days with almost nothing (other than an occasional blog post now and then) but now find myself in the thick of "out of control" and "running around the room"-ism. My other blog, Testosterone Overload, has started consuming a great amount of my time (by the way, I have a giveaway going on right now...come take a look) and I find myself less and less able to sit and think "methodical" thoughts.
It's only when I am alone...and away from my computer (that's a biggie), that I find time to connect with God and with me....I mean the REAL me....who I am inside (not the sarcastic jokester on the surface).
I've had a few such experiences lately.
While on my way to the chiropractor (yes, I am FINALLY taking care of my 6 month old back injury), this week and last, I had the opportunity to refresh my soul with a bit of good music (you know how music gets to me). During both instances, I took the time away, from the chaos that is my home, to really focus and listen to my newest music indulgence.
Remember me telling you about Hilary Weeks new cd, Every Step, that was coming out and how she hoped she would be able to sell enough copies in the first few days so she could top the Contemporary Christian Billboard Chart? Well she did sell enough copies and she did make the charts...#6...so yeay for her!
Well, Hilary made stated that the reason she wanted to top the charts was so that her music would be able to get out to a wider audience. She really feels like there are messages to share here. That people can benefit from these inspired lyrics. And...can I tell you...from my perspective she was absolutely right. THE WORLD NEEDS TO HERE THIS.
And so I bought the cd, and that's the one I have been indulging in.
One song, in particular, has continued to jump out at me...reaching deep within my aching, depressed, anxious, stressed and worried soul. It has awakened an allusive sense of HOPE that has been hiding somewhere in the recesses of my spirit for the last several months.
Isn't it ironic that I started this blog to offer others HOPE, feeling like I was "cured" of this terrible disease called depression, and yet, now I am found clinging to the same HOPE that I wanted so desperately to offer to others? All in a few short months. Crazy!
It's humbling. Very humbling.
And so I wanted to share these HOPEful lyrics with you, in HOPEs that they might speak to you as well.
RIGHT HERE
by Hilary Weeks
I already know you're strong
You don't have to hide your tears
Even the bravest
Have moments of fear
I can see beyond today
And I believe, I believe in your tomorrow
When it seems your dreams have abandoned you
When doubt is pounding at your door
When the flood is rising
When the fire of HOPE has turned to ashes
When the road fades beneath your feet
I'll be there by your side
I'll be there for you
Always I'll be with you
Right here
Right here
As the cloud begin to part
When the blue is breaking through
When your dreams
Come looking for you
You won't have to call my name
'Cause I'll be here, I'll be standing here beside you.
When you see miracles surround you
When the grass is green on every side
When the sun is shining
When you are standing at the summit
When the sea parts to let you through
I'll be there by your side
I'll be there for you
Always I'll be with you
Right here
Right here
Such a beautiful song. I've fallen in love with it.
It makes me think. It gives me HOPE. It strengthens my faith.
As the song says, the clouds will part, the blue will break through and dreams will be realized again. Miracles will happen, the sun will shine, we will find ourselves on top again, the sea will part to let us through. And He will be there...every step of the way.
Difficult times, times of trial, times of heartbreak and despair...they are all temporary. They WILL NOT LAST FOREVER. The darkness will pass and the sun will shine again. We just have to cling to that HOPE, that faith, and that trust in Him.
So, LET'S DO IT!
If you are struggling...join with me. Plant that little seed of HOPE right now...give it all you've got. CLING to it...NOURISH it....FIGHT for it! DON'T give in to hopelessness. DON'T let it pull you under.
God is with us...and He will use our darkest moments for our GREATEST good.
So let's have HOPE!
He's done it countless times before...and He will do it again.
So let's have HOPE!
He's done it countless times before...and He will do it again.

The album "Every Step" is available at Amazon.com in both CD
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